Your
worst enemy, he reflected, was your own nervous system. At any moment the
tension inside you was liable to translate itself into some visible symptom. Nineteen eighty-four
(Orwell).
Monday, 17 September 2012
Wednesday, 12 September 2012
What Price a Moment?
For Mark Tredinnick...
I
find myself in a moment; sitting and staring up through a v-shaped vista –
between the grey, lichen marked trunks of Bangalow Palms – and I notice how the
sun plays a different tune on each species of plant: delicate silver and copper
piping on the Casuarina needles, or thick citric screaming on the Coachwood
leaves. A Noisy Miner twists and flutters on glowing white feathers, then
perches sideways on the crumbling bark of a Sydney Peppermint to swallow his catch.
There’s an Angophora in the far distance; just a piece of a tree; a warty
salmon branch twisting in an S-shape, before moiling towards the sky. A
Currawong calls. The Sweet Pittosporum is thick with cream blossoms. Tree Fern
fronds wave in a gentle northerly breeze.
I’ve
been fortunate this week. In less than three days I’ve generated more income in
my own business than I would have in two weeks as an employee. If my
calculations are right, there’s a lot more to come. It feels like a blessing. Except
now the Internet is down. Again. And for a moment, I can’t earn any of that
promised income. A frustrating moment. I leave my little office and go outside
for some air. Let my computer re-boot – and myself. Breathe. And I sit out in
the shade and I listen to the colours of the world. It’s only for a moment, but
it feels a lot more valuable.
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